Sushant Singh Rajput.. I am sorry for what happened 💔 - A letter to him with learnings for us.

Dear Sushant,

It's been three days that the feeling of numbness is only now fading away only to tell me that I have to be a better person now and each day.

I will care for myself alot more than ever I won't let any situation be bigger than who and what I am.

And I am going to promote mental health to everyone that I can..

I am going to not let anything external to me to charge of me.

Sushant.. you shouldn't have gone.. I see your pictures and it gets me teary eyed, I had never met you but now I wish I had..

I don't know if I would have made a difference but I feel sorry for whatever has happened to you so much so that you decided to commit suicide and get rid of the pain. For a warrior like you this decision would have been the toughest and what makes it worse is that people who shouldn't have mattered to you, things that could have gotten better are the reasons why you did that to yourself.

It has only brought sadness to your family, I can only imagine how your sisters feel right now maybe blaming herself for leaving you alone..

The pain that your father is going through of losing his young wife back then and his young shining son who was always a star in his eyes.

You could have changed your career you were a star and alot better than anyone of us here..but all that we did was to not acknowledge it.. I won't talk big things because I never watch movies but I have watched Byomkesh Bakshi, MS Dhoni, Chichore, Kai Po Che.. and I thought to myself that this one here is one amongst us. And I never thought but in these two days I have all my emotions only for you.. You represented us..

You tried harder, you let them win..

They didn't invite you to have koffee with because they were all so insecure, an unestablished Ananya Pandey could be on the couch but you couldn't..

I am proud of you that you held your head high and always tried to be the sweet one.. in the parallel universe you are still there living your dreams..

You dared to be better than everyone but you got lost only to be accepted by people who are not half as amazing as you are!

You tried to fit in while you were only meant to stand out and create what you created each day..

I have never seen a star as intellectual as you are. Your Instagram posts seemed just so deep in their meanings but only if we knew it all in good time..

There will now be a world full of people trying to blame you for everything but I have made a promise with myself that Mental health is a priority and I will not watch any movie by any favoured star kid if they lack compassion..

They didn't let you co exist while all you wanted was a little respect, a little acknowledgement but this is where you were wrong you expected people half as talented as you to acknowledge your awesomeness.. How would this happen..?

Why.. why.. why.. just why.. In the parallel universe when I meet you someday I would stay there only to know how bad it hurt you..

This loss seems just so close and real to me..

I have cared for mental health of my friends and family.. I will try to be more compassionate but I would like alot of us to take from his story only to get better at life because that's the least that we could all do for someone who just wanted to live a happy life.. doing what he loved doing

This wasn't too much.

Always in my thoughts ❤️ I pray and hope you are in lesser pain, and this wakeup situation keeps us all awoke🙌🏻

Your innocence, Your sweetness makes it difficult to look into your eyes in your pictures..

I will teach my kids to dream bigger, I will tell them about you and they will follow their passion only to prove how strong you were..

I will keep you alive in my thoughts.. always..

Rest in peace 🙏💔

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