Running Wild - An Overrated Affinity

We all watch people on Instagram finding peace in one thing or the other.. Travelling/painting just running wild and then there are people like us, trying to figure out what to do to feel that zeal to stay alive..

Each Friday evening I would sit with my phone waiting for people to post from the craziest places just to see how cool the world is eventually I became one of those people who go out and chill on Friday evening and whose stories people look at and state oh they are wild.

But now things are different..

It doesn’t necessarily mean I want to run away and never turn back. I want to be myself paint my hair red and run along making my heart beat faster and understand how alive I am each day.

How much am I gonna add to my life by being more of me. True to myself being happier each day.

Its so difficult to say and believe in being happy each day. What i feel today is a back pain, my nail color sucks i slept off thrice thinking if i will ever fall in love again its crazy how i don’t want materials but i want feels. I want to be around people that love me and guess what?? there are many and I am blessed to have people who love me for who i am and what I am.

I have habits that need to be worked on!!!! Biggest of all Overthinking! I am gonna work on it and I end up overthinking about not to overthink.

Being heart broken, detached, no expectation kinda person is so easy lately but working on to make it better to make it firm again to love again. To be yours and someone’s truly again is an amazing thing.

Affinity is a strength and source of immense power and way to connect to various things and most importantly to your own self.

Go ahead do that shit! Don’t be scared of rejections, Don’t be scared at all, nothing will make sense.

Go towards it with full strength and even when it doesn’t work out you will know how to make it work in your next try.