Live in !

While I recently moved out of my house I have suddenly realised my life isn’t about the freedom anymore I don’t seek freedom I seek saturation I guess, in the right way in different things.

Over a period of time we have all felt wanted or wanted a certain thing and have had difficult times dealing with reality to be or not to be? For few things even my life’s most dynamic ‘path to decision making line’

fails to stay resolve issues, it says if it’s not a 100 percent yes it’s a No! Sometimes it sums to what if it’s not a 100% No? Is that a Yes?

Anyway like always I moved on to self-love and will eventually heal, I don’t know how much time will such things take but they have made an impact, like an impact that matters to me in the middle of the night. The impact that tells me that my entire life could change and then I think why would I want it to change when all I want is to be celebrated and I am exactly where I am supposed to be!

For years, I have wanted to be in the place that I am in and I have always wondered how people feel so empty while they are so full? You are never full, you get happy about impacting so many lives in your own way but you move away from most things that matter to you! Why is it so important to do something so influencial in your early 20s? Why are we all stressing on it so much, I am not saying one should be lineant about their life in their mid 20s All I am saying is that if I am educated enough to understand that the seed that I am sowing today won’t bear the fruit tomorrow, how can my efforts today start yielding fruitful profit ? To err is human, we are all going to keep making mistakes and honestly multiple of them are the ones that will make you alot better and you will be glad that they happened. Love, lies, heartbreak, happiness, sorrows, loss, rejections, criticism all of these are parts of life that will make you become better of whatever you are trying to pursue.

The key is to keep acknowledging the fact that either of this has occured, is happening. There was a time when I couldn’t handle sorrows or rejection, I moved my concentration to breathing and looked into the mirror while saying “It’s okay, it’s gonna be better.. you don’t like it but it has happened to you and if there is anything that you can do is that you first start with acknowledging that it has happened to you”

A self pep talk really lifts you up!!

Ignorance isn’t really bliss. You could be close to all your goals yet move far far away in seconds, lives change in a way that they will never get back in a millisecond and your heart may break even after spending a great evening so when things are so uncertain why not live in the present, look forward to Future and not be expectant?