Just another page from my heart.

Just another page from my heart.

I write while I travel and I overthink while I am supposed to sleep. Honestly I have been a little off lately have been over thinking if I must be myself or just let things go and become this quiet person to fit in. Ofcourse I know I am not supposed to fit in. I know I must make a difference , to me before I make one to the world.

I have lately started a need to be with someone. A boy or a girl I don’t know I just want someone mine. I want to wakeup in the middle of the night and not be scared to wake this person up and let them know that I need cuddles. I want someone to make love with, cuddle crazy and then fall asleep and wakeup with a smile.

I don’t want to hurry up to go home. I want to dress up great for this someone special. I am this strong independent woman but I want to embrace all my vulnerability and not be sorry about it.

I see men who aren’t just good enough I look at couples being in love and honestly I have fallen for each love statement that was ever told to me. Yes I have been fooled, I have been fooled for my vulnerability. Did I want to keep hopping skipping or jumping from one person to another? No. I just wanted love and I want it in my way. I have so many people ready to love me and honestly I have tried to love them back but I haven’t really been able to. I don’t want to think and fall in love. I want to fall in love and think how amazing this person is. I often wonder why I have been attracting all kinds of weirdos now I realize because I am a weirdo. I am a giver and people have always been selfish, I am a keeper and people have always kept me in reserve. It doesn’t really feel good And I know most of us can relate.