I gave up all of Me ✔️🌸

Nothing external to you should take charge of you.. is what I learnt very late in my life..

Most of us spend our life in different ways and If you think otherwise it's not wrong!!!

There will always exist a so called smart human, doing better in life who have no idea how exactly did they do it right but they will tell everyone else how to do Butit then again even if there exists best peaches in the world there are still people who are allergic to it..

I hate to stick to what people say... I haven't overcome that shit yet like they will want to tell you otherwise like if you are in the middle of an ocean and they are at the shore, you hear a boat coming and you are certain about what you are doing still farway from the shore these people will yell start swimming, work for it.. everything else that's not a part of your plan.. they love making it difficult for others.. or sometimes they are just concerned but creating unwanted pressure is what fucks everyone up..

The love that you should have, the life that you should live is all set up by everyone else but you and by the time you realise it.. you have already made many mistakes in life but that should not take away your willingness to get better now.. We all have reached a point in our lives where we knew that we are doing it wrong.. the soul isn't at peace and continued doing what was right as per society's standards until one day I could not feel anything.. I didn't know what I felt apart from the fact that I was trapped.. that's when I gave up..

I gave up everything that no longer fed my soul.. I gave up everything that no longer brought me the energy that I wanted or the energy that I gave it..

I mean I understand being successful is important but measuring your success to the other people's success is not what I want to keep doing for life..

Before anything else I want to be human, feel and embrace.. Make my own set of mistakes and grow out of it..

I was done with society and people trying to tell me or expect me to do what is right.. for them..

Doing what is right for everyone is like, sitting with people where there is just one standing fan and sitting behind the fan so that everyone but you can enjoy the cool breeze..

I was done living for people.. I don't know what I would feel, what I would do for the next couple of months or couple of years but all I know is that I will do what made me happy, I will accept that I am nervous when I am nervous.. I wouldn't waste my life trying to make it look like a push up bra .. I am all bare now..

A new me who is not going to be afraid to be everything that she was once scared of..

& just like that I gave up all of me..